Surrender

What is going on lately? It just seems like everything has gone wrong at once. I'm frustrated!
I feel like my husband and I are being manipulated by someone in the family who has made poor choices and expects us to get them out of it. We are still dealing with our own poor choices from the past, and struggling with my unemployment. I know we will help them, but I know we will also sacrifice in order to do that. I just want things to even out, be steady and peaceful. Does that ever happen for long? When things in our lives were going well, I kept crossing my fingers, praying the bottom wouldn't drop out...seems it just happens that way. Now I just keep hoping for better times.
Oh God, I need you right now! Please hold me and comfort me. Cradle me in the shadow of Your wings. Please keep giving me hope. Help me to trust in You. Help me to surrender to Your will.

An imperfect woman...a perfect child of God.

When I think about what it is I want people to see of me...of who I really am, I'm stumped. I think of myself as someone's wife, mother, sister, friend, Aunt, daughter. I really wonder sometimes who I am. How would I describe myself? Can I describe my personality without using others as a relative point to start from?
I am afraid of who I am, in truth. I am sure I would not live up to whatever other people think about me. I am so far from the woman I want to be. I have difficulty understanding what it is that makes others care for me...not that I am bad, but that I am unremarkable...average.
So, I have to trust in God's Word. That I am His, I am special because of that. I am forgiven of my sins, and loved. I am a daughter of the King of the Universe. I am someone He created to be exactly who I am.
Maybe I am created to be someone's mother, daughter, wife, sister, Aunt and friend. Maybe my worth is found in whatever God has put me here for. My worth is in His purpose for my life, whatever that might be.